It is 2015 and I am on a coffee date.
I have been gallivanting and have not reported into an office for more than one year. I am enjoying a cup of coffee, with an old friend, an ex audit partner and his disapproval of my new life-style is presenting a challenge to me.
The words that I heard, served as a mirror of my old life and my old way of thinking. He was my mentor when I still held a corporate job and we shared a lot of meaningful and hearty conversations during those mentorship sessions. So naturally, I assumed that he would understand this journey that I’ve recently embarked on. The journey of what I call self re-member-ance.
However, he was on another page, instead of offering support, he expressed concerns about the difficulty I may face, should I wish to go back to a corporate job. He explained that I would have to start at the bottom and build myself up. His concern for me came from a place of genuine care. There were fragments of myself that identified with these fears that he was projecting, about my possibly doomed future in the corporate world.
I remember absorbing some of these fears and making them my own. But at the same time, I also felt an inner stir, a quiet knowing that I’m here to be different, to not fit in, to challenge the rules of my culture, to have a voice. And I realised at that point that I didn’t know how to address his fears yet. I knew that my destiny isn’t tied to mainstream thinking but I wasn’t yet able to express how I’m going to do things differently.
I told him that I would dare to live my truth even when it doesn’t make sense to most. Quitting my job and leaving it all behind was exactly what I needed because it was moulding me into becoming exactly the person that I am not, exactly the person that I do not want to be. It was time for new directions and I put a backpack on my back and left my laptop bag behind me. This was a time for self-discovery, an opportunity to discover who else I am, to uncover the parts of myself that I have been hiding.
My self-assurance came from my inner place of knowing, a place that often reminds me that I’m on the right path. I sensed that by choosing to honour the life force within me, I choose to be in alignment with my life story. By being attuned, I’m able to draw strength from an ever-flowing river, a river that will never run dry. Whenever doubt and insecurity creep in, I drink from these waters and wash away anything that no longer serves me.
The year is 2023 and I am still flowing in the river of Life. All my needs are fulfilled and I live abundantly and simply in an environment that supports my being. I am Here, Now and grateful for every part of the journey; the ebb and flow. I understand that my highest expression is to be naturally me, in every moment. I do not need to prove a point to anyone.
